Electrostatic Female

All I gotta do is close my eyes and I get an image that's so nice
A girl I approached with a sexy body and beautiful eyes
Something so unique, I couldn't put a price
On her, I'm proud to say that I got her
Three hours minimum everytime I call her
She kissed me through the phone until the next time I saw her
She gets turned on, I got the ignition and the starter
Truth is she breaks me down like no one else
She does it so quietly and with stealth
Everything she provokes inside, she did it all herself
The same way you said you felt
The day you met me
Feeling like I'm your only goal, damn you set me
You're still a lil tied up, can I set you free?
I feel like myself with you, you just let me be
I just wanna make you feel good, can you let me?
You're as important to me  sports on TV
Well, not yet
But you'll get there I bet
My goal is set
Give me something I won't regret
Cuz if you break my heart I guarantee I won't even remember the day we met
But I expect the best
Put me to the test
I swear I won't fail
A beautiful female sent to my inbox from heaven's e-mail
Call me your captian and let's set sail
And give all these people a story to tell
(N.A.I.L)


we gone have fun
we gone be long
we gone be real and sip some patron
there's nothing I wouldn't do to keep you around
there's nothing I wouldn't do to keep you aroused
I know you can be what I haven't found
I hope I could be your one million sterling pounds
I wanna take you back and forth in time
look in to the future and say I scored a dime
you're the one, so colorful and alive
you got me in the clouds, you got me in blinds
leading the way with the sound of your voice
tempting me with the sensuousness of your poise
damn girl, I want you inside
I'm gonna stay close 'cause I want your dye
I've been longing to see a world with no lies
cupid, could you please tie us for the rest of our lives?
this this feels like a dream
a mental wave of soaring self-esteem
an inebriation state drawing how it feels
the electrostatic energy in between
the clearest memories my mind has ever seen
those feelings my heart had been waiting to feel
that place my soul needed to peel
an letter of love for your kisses to seal
(Ambiguous)

Venting Pt. 3

Oh man here we go once again
All the drama, all the rumors, all the losing friends
Somehow people still think I give a fu**
But when they throw there little fits they don't see me duck
Yeah I'm outta the way
You can't do anything to me
Who can you even think to say
That you see straight through me?
Saying things to me like you knew me
I brush my shoulders off and keep doing what I'm doing
You think I need an excuse for being myself?
You think that I'll kneel down for you just cuz you hit me below the belt?
This is not even close to what I've actually felt
People still think that I don't leran from my lessons
That I'll just keep cleaning up my own messes
I think I can learn pretty well when all I get is the same message
Yeah there is still nothing new, but me and the changing years

Brewing my own life beer, cheers
Let's toast to being free from all drama
Well, things change, as told by my momma
I am who I am because of the people I chose to cruise with
So don't be mad at the final product when you helped produce it
Things is that I learned from what I was taught
Express youself and know that people you can trust are not a lot
Keep your enemies close, but your friends closer
That's the way I see it this day and age
Cuz even when you think you know him or know her
People quickly change
So fast, it'll blow past to a point where all you see is there ass
Leaving you behind
Leaving you shook
Someone help me find someone on this Earth I can trust
Help me look....

My Ex-Girl, My Next Girl

In my mind just being there is burning her
On the other hand I feel that I'm deserving her
Cuz every single day I'm earning her
This kind of information is usually personal
But I guess things change, ain't that right?
Hand on the wheel of my inner drive
Feeling everything from her talk to her inner vibe
Just trying to break her down without breaking her inner pride
Just trying to revive after she let my inner die
Just like I tell my friends, why should I even try
When my efforts just bring tears to everyone's eyes
And all that comes out in everyone are lies
Blowin away the unnecesary just trying to make those same tears dry
I just wanna take a minute to fly
But she took my wings
But there's another one next up, let's see what she brings
To the table, burn up my past to a point where it stings
And I'll create the melody of love to a point where you sing


It gets to a point where I'm so confused
There's not much to win, but there's not much to lose
On the other option there is only two to choose
The chance to create another lane to cruise
But I'm stuck in another world
A world of complete irony
My ex-girl, my next girl


Like I said I'm so confused
I mean why should I go to a place where I feel so used?
Why should I take the time to fix something up when I ain't got the tools?
But damn it I hate the fact I was the bearer of bad news
Yeah I adored you to a point where even my dad knew
But who knew?
It just wasn't you
Killed me in every place like we were playin Clue
But there's another one but I have no clue what to do
With her, why should I move on so quickly when somehow I still miss her?
How can I say that I'm over her when I still hate it when people diss her?
Yet I know we ain't for eachother, I don't fit her
And I still don't know where they're both at, at this point
Don't think I should stay in this joint
If only I could steal her thoughts and leave her naked
Someone get me out of this stress jail
Are the risks to high to a pont where I shouldn't take it?
If I do, will I fail?
I don't think there's time for that
But if I let myself be guided by stats
It goes, heartbreak two, Joshua zero
Should I really go back to that?
Or maybe I should just start fresh
Hoping that If I make this next step
She will be for the best
That girl is next

It gets to a point where I'm so confused
There's not much to win, but there's not much to lose
On the other option there is only two to choose
The chance to create another lane to cruise
But I'm stuck in another world
A world of complete irony
My ex-girl, my next girl


Crazy stuff happens in this world of irony
My heart is torn and wrinkled, I'm just waiting for her to iron me
I may interpret this wrong, but she's eyeing me
I'm so lost to a point where only she is finding me
Yes, her the one who's pickin me up
It's funny how she stood next to the girl who months ago was bitchin it up
New people in my life and damn right I'm livin it up
And I give thanks to all the people who watched my heart break
But I give more thanks to the people who helped fix it up
Fed up with living this disorientation
Just know that your the real inspiration
For where I'm at, at this mental station
Just fillin the tank
Do me a favor and just fill in the blanks
So somehow I feel completed
And if you can't, I'm gonna have to ask you to beat it

Venting Pt. 2

Love and live life
Stand straight and in stride
Show what you mean on the inside
Never give yourself the chance to say that you lied
I have no definition even though I'm greatly defined
I am so optimus and I stay in my prime
So even through all the happiness there is always that little window
Opened up to different feelings
Screaming while I see the truth behind what I'm seeing
But this is what I'm really feeling
It's been a month and a half and I don't think it's respectful
To keep my love life uneventful
Can't keep it discreet, my actions are my example
I know it's not all gone
Cuz I notice her face everytime I pass and I'm gone
But in the end it's you who I get along, with
I don't know if you notice but it's pure bliss
But I'm still haunted by her kiss
Even more haunted by her diss
Her words, her actions, her lies
Everytime I hear something like that, regret leaves my eyes
And I wouldn't take back our goodbye's
Even though I gave it a good try
But screw it, relationships are a full line
And the single section is open and free to climb
Put me in your mind so I'm free to find
Give me a sense of your cents
Two nickels ready to make a dime
But peace is what I listen and rhyme so I'll stay still for now
Just to see another heartbreak performance deserving of a bow
I'll give life its chance to prove me wrong
Until that day, I remain strong

The Kid Alone

The kid alone breaths
Yet no one can hear him
The kid alone has a vision
But no one can see him

All alone, yet surrounded by people
Left without a happy ending
He searches for a sequel
Only on himself is he depending

Creating a new world just for him
With all the little things he hides within
He lies empty, his happiness was evicted
Searching for it daily, but the code is encrypted

The kid alone speaks
But nobody hears him
So many people around him
But nobody near him

In a place no man can find
In a paradise meant to unwind
He searches for this date
To cure his heart from this heartbreak

A Vocabulary Understood Only By A Man Who Never Understands

He moves freely yet so captive
He follows his own shadow
He screams : "Damn this!"
He screams and no one hears his cry
Only his heart can endure
Only his heart
Where does he start?
Where does he end?
This feeling extends
Beyond all imagination
A feeling made
Beyond all creation
Make me new and take this away
Make me fall into redemption
Give me the needed affection
I need it now
I yearn and scream for it
It doesn't exist
It's not here
It won't last, not this
No one listens because they are not ready to hear
I scream so loud and clear
But only I understand
Only I
I understand, but I don't know why
I cry
I cry till every tear hits the floor
Pick up my tears, clean the puddle
I scream again and it remains suttle
Scream into my ear so I don't hear my heart
I can't take it
Scream, scream, scream
So I don't hear the voices say
Say the language of regret and pain
Take it all away
Start it over, reset
Do it again, with no regret
I speak in a normal tone
Only I understand, so I stand alone
Stay in my dome
Where no one will enter
No more damage
No more
Show me your past, I'll show you mine
Show me your feelings, what's inside
I do, I did, I cried
I cried and it won't happen again
I only trust that statement
As much as I am forced to trust "friends"
They only drag me down the pavement
I need something to deal this pain with
Show me it
Change me
Make me better
Even though I know you can't
Because only I understand

Love Is...

Love is what you want it to be
Love is a mystery
Love is you, love is me
Love is a door and only we have the key
Love makes us captive and love sets us free

Love is unexpected
Love is reflected
In you and I
Love keeps us connected
Love is restless

Love is inside jokes and time spent together
Love is the warm feeling through any weather
Hate brings nothing
Love just makes it all better
Love is a unwritten letter

Love is hurt, love is pain
Love is always in our brain
Love is bipolar, but somehow maintains
Love is a battlefield
And we carry the stains

Love is great, love is pure
Through anything it can endure
But one thing is for sure
It comes from above
Love is God, God is love