Man Please...

Feeling so special almost like it's entertaining
Still holding on to my hopes, I'm still maintining
Damn, I feel like going acapella
My mind is so open
If it rains I could use it as an umbrella
I got that saying from a friend who got it from Einstein
For a better life, that's the reason I grind
Hungry hungry hypocrites, that's why I mind
You can't see who you really are, that's why you're blind
I keep my head up and you try to find a reason why
Let's just say that that is something you'll never find
Man please just try to get up on my level
Even with all the shit you got, I still stand up better
Man just try to get my stage 
It's stormy up here, but I got good weather
I stand as a heavyweight while you're still countin ya feathers
Your perception of me keeps changing
Why you trying to save face?
Subtracting til I get what I just need, a difference is what I'm making
You keep up the pace
I'm all up in this place
Slow down bro, this ain't your race
Call me a lawyer cause I'm the person who's defending my case


Something fresh, something new
Something red, something blue
Something for them, something for you
Just when you think you know me, you're left without a clue
Still on my search, still doing me
I keep going up like there's no gravity at an angle of 90 degrees
I keep doing what I do with ease
While you're outta breath, just take a seat
You think you know?
Man please...


Verse 2 and shit just got real
Pen in one hand, in the other one a meal
People thought I was a letter and that they had me sealed
I showed em what I'm really about and saw their faces get peeled
Shocked like they've never seen me before
I'll bless you with good shit, what you gotta sneeze for?
I know you can't keep up, why you wheeze for?
You're fundamentals are lost, what you shooting three's for?
Man keep it down while I keep it going around
Say I ain't got it, you're going crazy for the second round
You're stuck in the bullpen while the starter just took the mound
Sky high limits are my only bounds
Check your grammar kid, you just lost the nouns
You just looking for a flow like mine in the lost and found
Just took a vertical leap like I'm about to go uptown
Man my rhymes explode like landmines
I should get a stand-up cuz you lovin my punch lines
I usually don't repeat this more than one time
But damn I'm one of a kind

Something fresh, something new

Something red, something blue
Something for them, something for you
Just when you think you know me, you're left without a clue
Still on my search, still doing me
I keep going up like there's no gravity at an angle of 90 degrees
I keep doing what I do with ease
While you're outta breath, just take a seat
You think you know?
Man please...


Verse 3 and it just got stupider
This is just beatiful, I mean just look at her
Talking bout my rhymes if you didn't notice
No copy paste, this is all me in case you didn't know this
They say "man you're full of it"no shit!
I used to have a fat obstacle holding me back like Norbit
But now I'm free now, man I worked for this
Still in my zone, I can't stop
Four words: Damn I can rock
Influenced by adrenaline and good hip-hop
Never two-faced, I hate it when people flip-flop
But that just means they haven't matured and ain't rocking
I already fell from the tree and started walking
Trust me man I'll never be speakin about guns cockin
That ain't who I am, ain't what I do
I speak what I feel, I write what I live
My lyrics are based on what really exists
In my life, what the world fails to take a look at
Straight foward
Damn right I'm never turning back
 
 
Something fresh, something new

Something red, something blue
Something for them, something for you
Just when you think you know me, you're left without a clue
Still on my search, still doing me
I keep going up like there's no gravity at an angle of 90 degrees
I keep doing what I do with a ease
While you're outta breath, just take a seat
You think you know?
Man please...

Followed By

I got sixteen problems

About to have seventeen

Those are the years of my life

The grass hasn't always been so green

The world ain't gonna get better as it seems

I slow my role, but here comes the push

I avoid problems while my friends keep smoking kush

Everyone's on center stage while I'm behind the bush

This year of my life has been ruled by the wrong things

Like America's affiliation with Bush

But I push, then comes the fall

I seem to stay bipolar

Yet I feel like I ain't crazy at all

The hits keep coming as I try to crawl

My fundamentals are fading, so I can't start to ball

People keep clownin'me, I'm about to start a brawl

I may be down now but that doesn't mean I'll stay there

Life has many rules, but nobody said it would be fair

But this is not even close to the denoument

Even though it looks like the end

There won't be a way to conclude this

I stay up cause I know the finish line is at sunrise

Damn time flies

What is this followed by?

I'm followed by you, followed by him

Followed by her, followed by them

Followed by life, followed by the inside

Followed by me, followed by my mind

If you wanna follow me, just follow my rhymes

If you wanna follow my life, just follow my lines

Followed by... followed by

Followed by so many memories

From pain to laughter

I'll always remember these

From my friends to my enemies

They all seem to melt like a bed of cheese

All that remains is me

And God who is for eternity

This is all hard to process internely

So much flame lit up inside

It's burning me

But fuck it

Everyone who doubts me can suck it

Bastards who dedicate their lives to doing evil

Just wait till I pull a stunt on em'like Kneivel

My lines be cutting heads off like if I was medievil

On the real

Life's a bitch, just treat her good

Cause she can end you if she could

Shit gets hard like morning wood

I just wish these cats would

But I stay on my grind and take it day by day

Cause in the end

Y'all will judge me anyways

// I'm followed by you, followed by him
Followed by her, followed by them
Followed by life, followed by the inside
Followed by me, followed by my mind
If you wanna follow me, just follow my rhymes
If you wanna follow my life, just follow my lines
Followed by... followed by //

Followed by so much sht from dusk till dawn

Only thing that won't follow me are people who visit the blog

Fuck em' someday the tables will turn

And I will receive what I earned

And someday I'll apply what I already learned

And leave the memories that'll soon be burned

Follow me as I continue my adventure

Truth will come

Honesty from the center

How do you know what life wants outta you if you haven't met her?

No time for immaturities

Your bitch-assness won't be taken easily

I find myself losing you, but I never find you fading me

And I really don't give a shit for a thumbs down you clown

Take a look in the mirror before you begin rating me

This will all be followed by a reaction

I'm screwed up but there's always an attraction

To so many things, not one in specific

Just fall into this

Feel what I feel

Breath what I breath

Continue the journey and you will see

How it really means to be free

// I'm followed by you, followed by him
Followed by her, followed by them
Followed by life, followed by the inside
Followed by me, followed by my mind
If you wanna follow me, just follow my rhymes
If you wanna follow my life, just follow my lines
Followed by... followed by //

Expansion Of My Dreams

Sometimes it's so hard being sincere
I'm not even close to the top, but the view looks good from here
Glories await me while mistakes are in the rear
As cloudy as it is, I can almost see clear
My goals have been set
With no room to get upset
No time for a meltdown
My dreams will never be a letdown
I know why I'm here, but when will I get there?
She's there waiting for meto open the door, but will I enter?
Things are about to get complicated
Good thing I'm patient and used to waiting
But screw patience, I've waited too long
Tired of waiting for my life to sing it's song
If there's a jam in there, I will compose it
I'm tired of sitting here, waiting for a motive
Get what I need, chase what I want
Cheating my life is a plan, but screw getting caught
Life is priceless so don't try to sell yourself
Avoid being bought
Chase what you dream of using what you got
The journey is long and the valleys are wide
Get up, everything is fine
Gotta remember, right or wrong, it's all in my mind
Shoot off like beams
Many doors to be opened, many things are key
Can't stay still
I see the expansion of my dreams

Look up at the stars
I'm will be up there
Spaceships will replace cars
And glory is what I'll wear
My chances are slim, but I don't care
I'm not looking at stats or screens
I'm looking at the expansions of my dreams
( Yeah!) // The expansion of my dreams //

Felt like a little self-motivation is needed
Better self-esteem is everyday pleaded
This is my life and my ambitions are mine to be possesed
I need to put laziness to a final rest
Felt like a little push was to be inserted
Tired of your words being blurted
Put your spells on me
My acomplishements will curse it
Curses! So much to do in my life and it just started
16 years of the same shit, I already know who farted
Life throws curveballs at me, luckily I caught it
People sold me so much shit, luckily I never bought it
I wanna do so much, it's not too late
Not time too waste
Can't wait
Leave it up or make my own fate
Be mediocre or bring myself to be great?
This are questions brought in this mind state
I planted so many options, now it's time to see how they breed
Shoot off like beams
Many doors to be opened, many things are key
Can't stay still
I see the expansion of my dreams


Look up at the stars
I'm will be up there
Spaceships will replace cars
And glory is what I'll wear
My chances are slim, but I don't care
I'm not looking at stats or screens
I'm looking at the expansions of my dreams
( Yeah!) // The expansion of my dreams //

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I Feel So...

I need an outlet so just hear me out
Take five minutes to feel what I feel and what it's all about
I've been feeling so weird
I've lost myself
Not everything is so clear
I'm not sure if it is my mental health
My thoughts take me to a place so far distant
Sometimes good, maybe bad, but I am gifted
How do I know what to give time to think about and what to let go?
What do I rip apart and what do I let sow?
I used to think life went so fast, but now this feels so slow
I stay up, losing sleep
Thinking things that are oh so deep
Feelings that are oh so steep
A sadness that continues to creep
It's so hard to cope with things
It's so hard to adjust to what life brings
I'm only 16 and I've heard life sing
To the light of God is what I cling
But developing situations continue to sting
I just wish this was over
I wish complete happiness was only around the corner
Instead of me and anxiety getting stuck on the border
I consult my mind and give thought to what I live
And came to a conclusion......
I won't know the ending till it comes
And I can finally see the rising sun

/// I feel so ///
// Inexplicable //
I don't understand what my mind commands
But I can't stand one more minute
Of this pain and everyone who has to do with it
Bright spots become so minimal
I feel so inexplicable...

I feel...I don't know
It sucks
I don't know how things flow
I'm so... what the f***
It's impossible for me to express my feelings because I'm afraid I'll get hurt
I lead myself from experience and trust me it works
I gladly will leave you if you plan to take advantage
Try to break my heart again, it will be a difficult task to manage
People follow my problems like if they were fanatics
And a middle finger becomes almost automatic
It comes to a point where you can't stand it
The feeling of being uncomfortable
A mobile heart, leading me to all places, so my emotions stay portable
I will remain straight because it's all I can do
But to my sentimental being I will remain true
I will be on the move like a light beam
And don't worry this is not an issue on self-esteem
This is just a quest to find freedom in my dreams
To wake up in a world where there are different scenes
Some beyond you and me
So I keep it to myself, think what you won't but none of y'all know shit about me

/// I feel so ///
// Inexplicable //
I don't understand what my mind commands
But I can't stand one more minute
Of this pain and everyone who has to do with it
Bright spots become so minimal
I feel so inexplicable...

A Journey To The Center Of My Being

I speak what I feel, I feel what I write
I write what I think, so it all comes from inside
In between your eyelids, I fly this
Something no one else can have, no way to buy this
Results may vary, so don't try this
Rumors don't hurt cause like I said before " It's All Gossip"
And all I hear is nonsense
Why would I even respond this?
Or even think for a reply
I don't give my time to lies
So, as I continue my journey to the center of my being
I get stuck in a place where I even stop breathing
But I can't get the courage to begin leaving
I've come too far, it's been too long
I can't give up, that would be wrong
I look deep inside of myself and manage to recieve
A blessing from a place I cannot see
It's all imagination but the mind can be dangerous
A situation let off the leash, I didn't train this
I'm left with two options, look back or move foward
I follow neither
Because both will leave me with a new bother for tomorrow
And I promised myself there will be no more sorrow
So I stay put and a night comes where it all comes together
The pain, the waiting, it all got better
But what there is still much to follow....

A new beginning processed and retreiving
A new perspective, a new way of seeing
Free to begin breathing
Once more I begin the journey to the center of my being

Here we go again, the journey is long
Do not disturb, I am so far gone
Not meant to steal a title from Drake
But I'm searching with such a lust for life
Have you ever wondered why I love to be alone and secure?
There's times where you can't trust anyone to even sit with you
These times are rough as stone
It's almost as if I can only trust myself and God
Which is why I like to be alone
I search myself and forget about my problems and issues
So many times I have been used
I guess this is just an after-affect
We'll see how it ends after this
If it ends in happy bliss
Or will I again miss...
Positive fights against negative on a daily basis
This is Joshua Vazquez 101, these are just the basics
There is so much more than meets your pupil
I'm on a mission to be super duper
But I continue to slip like bloopers
I get up and walk towards my goal
Until I fill this gap, this hole
Emotions continue to be stored
My face says I'm bored, my words say so much more
I learn from mistakes, but I stick myself in a bubble
Fear is produced from the thought of it repeating itself
This is all mental
But I can't ignore it, it is so sentimental
I know and believe everything in life has a purpose
But almost every person who enters my life tries to destroy it
So at the end of it all they are worthless
I know I'm worth this
That's why I keep on searching...

A new beginning processed and retreiving
A new perspective, a new way of seeing
Free to begin breathing
Once more I begin the journey to the center of my being

I learned a while back that not everyone has the same vision
Not everyone is prone to bitchin'
Not everybody is meant to be wishing
Words are meant to be handeled wisely
That's why I know God is why
I'm still alive
I've been through so many things
I've been saved so many times
I need an outlet
That's why I write so many rhymes
Which is why I take the time to sleep in my mind
This is where I find
Such a stress, I need a place to unwind
I don't care what people think about me for one simple fact
They don't know crap
Led by their own opinion, they keep believing
How can you think you know me when I don't even know me completely?
This is why I continue this journey
So one day, I will recognize myself entirely
And erase everyone and everything that is tiring me

// A new beginning processed and retreiving
A new perspective, a new way of seeing
Free to begin breathing
Once more I begin the journey to the center of my being //

Bipolar

The skies speak of beauty in a blue language
Every problem I have seems so easy to manage
It seems like I just planned it
So high in hapiness and I don't plan on landing
All my efforts are withstanding
All by themselves
It feeels like christmas in july
All I need are the bells
So many wishes thrown into the well
How come I feel so good?
Even I can't tell
But everything's going pretty swell
Working my way through life
I go fast at speeds beyond 95
Running my world like a 9-5
Thinkinng about finding a pre-wife
But that's just mental
As long as she doesn't screw me over with her pre-menstrual
The day went so Gee Double Oh Dee
It's about 11:15
So I'll just go to sleep
As I lay my head on the pillow and reflect
Sadness creeps behind and takes away the effects
I go to sleep empty and vexed
Awww man what's next? ....

What is it that I deal with?
Is this what the world brings?
I speak and act
I do me and lay back
I do everything so smoothly but it ends up wack
I just try to go based on facts
Tired of the way you act
I go up and down
My life takes turns all around
This consumes and burns
Will this be my world?


I wake up and feel my shade
With a smile on my face, but somehow, full of rage
Emotions have no age
I'm sixteen and look what it made
An over-thinking guy stressed like I'm 48
I try to contain
I try to block my brain
But in class I can't even concentrate
I give what I can and left with nothing to take
So even more stress is what it creates
Nobody knows what I have to go through on a daily basis
God and experience is all I have to face this
I just wanna know what made this
Too much on my brain
3 seconds away from clinically insane
Still searching for a dane
Who won't leave me in need of a band-aid
As I return from a long day
I go to sleep early, wishing for this to go away
Praying this won't keep til' may
Great, I'm in a bipolar state

What is it that I deal with?
Is this what the world brings?
I speak and act
I do me and lay back
I do everything so smoothly but it ends up wack
I just try to go based on facts
Tired of the way you act
I go up and down
My life takes turns all around
This consumes and burns
// Will this be my world? //

I feel so alive!
I feel great inside
Misery strikes and thsi is what I find
Mystery equals life
So many stops on this tour
Every emotions causes a detour
Is love the cure?
What caused it in the end?
Was it the heartbreak?
The family battles or was it the fake friends?
I stay in need of a push...a motor
I hate feeling so bipolar....

What is it that I deal with?
Is this what the world brings?
I speak and act
I do me and lay back
I do everything so smoothly but it ends up wack
I just try to go based on facts
Tired of the way you act
I go up and down
My life takes turns all around
This consumes and burns
Will this be my world?

One More Shot- Una Ultima Oportunidad (Feat. Franchise)

Buscando la manera de pasar un buen rato,
call my homies a salir a algun sitio que sea bueno y barato.
Buscando la manera de poder ver la realidad,
de que aunque las cosas anden mal hay horizonte en el mar.
Finguendo que en mi dia a dia no es necesario su llamada,
pero la realidad es que muero por ver su cara.
Aun me siguo preguntando, que hara en este momento,
tendra a alguien q la ame o alguien para pasar el rato?
Vivir bajo la fantasia ya lo he descartado,
para que vivir pensando que aun estoy en el pasado.
Siempre pienso que de alguna manera puedo seguir.
como en cada mala situacion para mi,
de alguna forma siempre logro sobrevivir.
Pero me ha costado, en mi mente has bagado,
por mas que te niege no puedo hecharte a un lado.
Con tantos buenos recuerdos,
y tantas buenas memorias,
para mi es algo dificil hacerte parte de la historia......


De tan solo con mirarla a mis ojos brinda placer,
y me pesa el pensar de que la tuve que perder.
Me rindo esperando de algo mas ella me pueda dar,
vivo con la esperanza de esa ultima oportunidad.
(Franchise)


Damn babe, why'd you leave?
We're perfect for each other can't you see?
Ok, maybe not perfect, but we fit, just ask your mother
I charmed over everyone even your brother
We are and will always be the same lovers
We were in Zion while they were in the Matrix
Lost in the numbers
I can't keep acting like you're not what I need
I just need you to believe
It's a lot to ask, but what you have I need you to leave
Even your man
I won't go down without a fight
Just give me the chance to get it right
I know you have everything you sought
But he isn't the one for you
I can tell he's not
I can tell I'm what you want
How I affect you every time I start to taunt
And even when I stop
I know what I did was wrong
That what I did made your heart long
For something better
That's why I wrote this song
To see if one day we can get along
And return to our world
I need to have the privilege to say
" That's my girl"
Baby I know you can
Leave what you got and come home to your man
No one will ever matchup
I'm still your #1 fan
Call me your Stan
But no more craziness
No more laziness
I know how lonely it feels now
I'm tasting this
That's why I'm making this
But you were my favorite flavor of candy
So sweet like Mandy
Come back to your dude
I need back my boo


There she goes
She shine between all these hoes
From her hair to her clothes
I let you go, but I need you back
I never cut any slack
I'll put this as my goal, as my task
I need one more shot
Just to prove who I am and who he's not
////Just give me one more shot////
(N.A.I.L)

A Verse Dedicated To Someone Who Can't Read It III (The Final)

How did this happen so fast?
Everything we could have been is now in the past
All the times we had...such a blast
Every time we cried, every time we laughed
Like a short breeze, it just passed
Now I think about what might have been our future
Thinking if I would have won or turned out a loser?
Why did God have to choose her?
Why not someone I could be happy with for a long time?
Instead of composing these verses rhyme by rhyme
But this is my final dedication
A goodbye note sent from wherever will be my final destination
This is composed by what I make as private information
From a light-hearted station
A process that was meant for a beautiful creation
Now it will remain slayed
Our vision will be limited and that's how it'll stay
At least for now
I wish to have it all over and for that I pray
I have to admit that my emotions did fade
But out of my mind you never escaped
I'm sorry that it had to end up this way
But life's a female dog
And it sucks that we tried for so long
And it sucks after all the songs
But everything comes out when the light switch is on
Another verse extended to your being
Since this is all I have because you is someone I won't be seeing
But love is something I will keep believing
And trust me that your affection I will still be feeling
I'll smile every time you'll pop into my head
And get sad, knowing that I have to look ahead
But that's all in a lifetime's work
And for what it's worth
I care so much about you
And I'll never forget
On that you can bet...

Circumstances

Love seems so little and circumstances so big
Stuck in a hole that was never meant to dig
The irony of situations is huge, go fig'
But there is no room for sarcasm in what I go through
This is so serious like bad news
Cause you and I never got to be two
And a fairytale lie never had a chance to be true
This situation kept getting old and nothing ever came to be new
I tried so hard but now there's nothing left to do
I'm still confused
Like a dumb blond, ain't got no clue
My heart hurts, the red is turning blue
Decisions weren't made by us, life had to choose
Now because of its choose, we just gotta move
Act like winners, even though we both lose
But better off lost than having somebody else give you directions
I still have goals, still got objectives
Even though we won't see each other, I swear we'll stay connected
Even though everyone involved in some way is affected
Some okay, some worse, some just plain bad
But I won't forget all the moments we had


Friends, foes
Who cares, who knows?
Started so up, ended so low
I try not to pay it attention anymore
I'm just waiting to see what's in store
A shopping bag in hand but I won't let my heart be on sale again
Time to choose who is who
Who is a person I know and who's my true friend
So many people made of rubber
Just meant to bend
I can't believe it got this far, that's not cool
Keeping myself from crying in the first hour of school
I'm outta the shed, no longer will I be a tool
F..k anyone who still thinks I'm a fool
I'm not the one who's wearing masks dude!
So long I have held my words
Looking at my families lives and worlds
As there emotions crumble
No longer will I let them get hurt
No more smiling at hypocrites, not even a smirk
Just keep to your lurk
While I keep to my work

I just wanna scream
I just wanna leave
I just wanna be, I just wanna be
I just wanna be free
Free from this and may it not happen again
I'll try to keep my head up and make advances
Because these are just circumstances...