Venting Pt. 3

Oh man here we go once again
All the drama, all the rumors, all the losing friends
Somehow people still think I give a fu**
But when they throw there little fits they don't see me duck
Yeah I'm outta the way
You can't do anything to me
Who can you even think to say
That you see straight through me?
Saying things to me like you knew me
I brush my shoulders off and keep doing what I'm doing
You think I need an excuse for being myself?
You think that I'll kneel down for you just cuz you hit me below the belt?
This is not even close to what I've actually felt
People still think that I don't leran from my lessons
That I'll just keep cleaning up my own messes
I think I can learn pretty well when all I get is the same message
Yeah there is still nothing new, but me and the changing years

Brewing my own life beer, cheers
Let's toast to being free from all drama
Well, things change, as told by my momma
I am who I am because of the people I chose to cruise with
So don't be mad at the final product when you helped produce it
Things is that I learned from what I was taught
Express youself and know that people you can trust are not a lot
Keep your enemies close, but your friends closer
That's the way I see it this day and age
Cuz even when you think you know him or know her
People quickly change
So fast, it'll blow past to a point where all you see is there ass
Leaving you behind
Leaving you shook
Someone help me find someone on this Earth I can trust
Help me look....

My Ex-Girl, My Next Girl

In my mind just being there is burning her
On the other hand I feel that I'm deserving her
Cuz every single day I'm earning her
This kind of information is usually personal
But I guess things change, ain't that right?
Hand on the wheel of my inner drive
Feeling everything from her talk to her inner vibe
Just trying to break her down without breaking her inner pride
Just trying to revive after she let my inner die
Just like I tell my friends, why should I even try
When my efforts just bring tears to everyone's eyes
And all that comes out in everyone are lies
Blowin away the unnecesary just trying to make those same tears dry
I just wanna take a minute to fly
But she took my wings
But there's another one next up, let's see what she brings
To the table, burn up my past to a point where it stings
And I'll create the melody of love to a point where you sing


It gets to a point where I'm so confused
There's not much to win, but there's not much to lose
On the other option there is only two to choose
The chance to create another lane to cruise
But I'm stuck in another world
A world of complete irony
My ex-girl, my next girl


Like I said I'm so confused
I mean why should I go to a place where I feel so used?
Why should I take the time to fix something up when I ain't got the tools?
But damn it I hate the fact I was the bearer of bad news
Yeah I adored you to a point where even my dad knew
But who knew?
It just wasn't you
Killed me in every place like we were playin Clue
But there's another one but I have no clue what to do
With her, why should I move on so quickly when somehow I still miss her?
How can I say that I'm over her when I still hate it when people diss her?
Yet I know we ain't for eachother, I don't fit her
And I still don't know where they're both at, at this point
Don't think I should stay in this joint
If only I could steal her thoughts and leave her naked
Someone get me out of this stress jail
Are the risks to high to a pont where I shouldn't take it?
If I do, will I fail?
I don't think there's time for that
But if I let myself be guided by stats
It goes, heartbreak two, Joshua zero
Should I really go back to that?
Or maybe I should just start fresh
Hoping that If I make this next step
She will be for the best
That girl is next

It gets to a point where I'm so confused
There's not much to win, but there's not much to lose
On the other option there is only two to choose
The chance to create another lane to cruise
But I'm stuck in another world
A world of complete irony
My ex-girl, my next girl


Crazy stuff happens in this world of irony
My heart is torn and wrinkled, I'm just waiting for her to iron me
I may interpret this wrong, but she's eyeing me
I'm so lost to a point where only she is finding me
Yes, her the one who's pickin me up
It's funny how she stood next to the girl who months ago was bitchin it up
New people in my life and damn right I'm livin it up
And I give thanks to all the people who watched my heart break
But I give more thanks to the people who helped fix it up
Fed up with living this disorientation
Just know that your the real inspiration
For where I'm at, at this mental station
Just fillin the tank
Do me a favor and just fill in the blanks
So somehow I feel completed
And if you can't, I'm gonna have to ask you to beat it

Venting Pt. 2

Love and live life
Stand straight and in stride
Show what you mean on the inside
Never give yourself the chance to say that you lied
I have no definition even though I'm greatly defined
I am so optimus and I stay in my prime
So even through all the happiness there is always that little window
Opened up to different feelings
Screaming while I see the truth behind what I'm seeing
But this is what I'm really feeling
It's been a month and a half and I don't think it's respectful
To keep my love life uneventful
Can't keep it discreet, my actions are my example
I know it's not all gone
Cuz I notice her face everytime I pass and I'm gone
But in the end it's you who I get along, with
I don't know if you notice but it's pure bliss
But I'm still haunted by her kiss
Even more haunted by her diss
Her words, her actions, her lies
Everytime I hear something like that, regret leaves my eyes
And I wouldn't take back our goodbye's
Even though I gave it a good try
But screw it, relationships are a full line
And the single section is open and free to climb
Put me in your mind so I'm free to find
Give me a sense of your cents
Two nickels ready to make a dime
But peace is what I listen and rhyme so I'll stay still for now
Just to see another heartbreak performance deserving of a bow
I'll give life its chance to prove me wrong
Until that day, I remain strong

The Kid Alone

The kid alone breaths
Yet no one can hear him
The kid alone has a vision
But no one can see him

All alone, yet surrounded by people
Left without a happy ending
He searches for a sequel
Only on himself is he depending

Creating a new world just for him
With all the little things he hides within
He lies empty, his happiness was evicted
Searching for it daily, but the code is encrypted

The kid alone speaks
But nobody hears him
So many people around him
But nobody near him

In a place no man can find
In a paradise meant to unwind
He searches for this date
To cure his heart from this heartbreak