Monday, August 17, 2009

Deceptively Smart

She said " if someone isn't used, that person is useless"
Fighting to make his point, he can't lose this
But somehow she made him look like a dufus
As confusing as can be, she rolls along
She keeps signing her song
While he's brainwashed singing along
A hypnotic language only understood by those who can decipher
But those who can't get brain burnt with her lighter
She gets what she wants and receives what she needs
She looks at who she taunts
And believes less than half of what she sees
So many people listen to her advice
Thinking that she is oh so wise
Not knowing that all she breathes are lies
And her inside is constructed of plagues of flies
She loses some of them but always remembers
To try to bug him out from January to December
He holds her off and tries to get better
But her voice stays in his inbox like a letter
She shreds him up like cheddar
He falls back until he has to fight her once more
Hoping that one day she will stop blocking his north

A fancy lecture
A subliminal message given
She makes a space in his mind but doesn't let her sit in
So many hypnotized by her lies
It has no end, only had a start
Makes you feel like a retard
She is so deceptively smart

He shakes her off and heads another direction
But her image plays in repeat in his mind
He damns her affection
He has passed through this already, he learned his lesson
He stops to recover his mind
He is in great confusion
Not knowing that he is stuck in an illusion
Past dreams and present memories created a fusion
He hears voices screaming loser
Why didn't you choose her?
But those voices were as lost as him
Addicted to her verdicts like an awful sin
He thinks of a way to receive a win-win
But all in his mind is her, she is now within
Unfortunately his is canned in
Aluminum emotions like a tin
He pinches himself hoping that it's all a nightmare
Luckily he wakes up from it with a blank stare
Grateful that its all over
He thought to himself " this was worse than a bad quota"
Not knowing that he was in a 5 month coma
He looks to he left and witnesses his nightmare in motion
There she was with a stinging presence like a deadly potion
She notices he is awake and runs to him filled with happiness
He starts crying and becomes vexed
For haunting him still, was his ex....

Sunday, August 16, 2009

It's All Gossip

I hear everybody speak
But I can only decipher correctly when it's about me
Paranoia kicks in with heavy breathing
Every last word downloads into my head and begins seeding
It seems like every step I take is wrong
Like if someone who's holding my legs all day long
I progress, but exhaustion is strong
I feel like I'm in everyone's mouth for the wrong reasons
Don't talk without knowing
Don't give testimony without seeing
You think everything you hear is true?
You need to pick what you're believing
You're munchin on the wrong food so watch what you're feeding
If you don't know me well, don't speak your mind
I'm already unpredictable already, so in other words you're blind
Don't be so lame
You're so far back that you're still giving high fives
You're the one cutting your tongue with words sharper than knives
Don't talk about someone when you're not the one living their lives
Funny how you talk like it's your time
But you acting without even knowing the lines


Words with no meaning, words in vane
People jumping to conclusions, they must be insane
They think they know the painting when they're not even in the frame
Then don't ask yourself why your alone with no friends
Because your words have no end
No way to stop it
So much crap, but it's all gossip
It's all gossip...


You think you know, but you have no idea
Funny how it applies, couldn't be realer
Keep giving info on something you don't know
You're like a sober drug dealer
You hear everything that is told, your ears are bigger than Ben Stiller's
Your mouth stinks and it only gets fouler
I'm sick of your high-pitched words Mrs. Fowler!!!
Your nose is getting bigger than Ryan Howard's
My ears hurt so I can't pretend like it doesn't affect me
I try to sort the rumor out, but nobody lets me
So I take it step by step steadily
While your mouth creates an awful medley
I'll be happy to let you know
I'm still your friend, but you make me look like a foe
I'll let your gossip melt like snow
But your tongue will keep rollin
So I guess it'll keep snowing
But it's all good
Because every time you talk about me, my reputation keeps growing
And it will continue until you stop it
But anyways...what the heck? It's all gossip...


Words with no meaning, words in vane
People jumping to conclusions, they must be insane
They think they know the painting when they're not even in the frame
Then don't ask yourself why your alone with no friends
Because your words have no end
No way to stop it
So much crap, but it's all gossip
It's all gossip...

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Confession

Thoughts succeed, words fail
A newborn inspiration sets sail
More thoughts on my rear like a tail
New perspective, new letter, new mail
A letter with no name
A star with no fame
A guilt with no one to blame
No comparison, nothing is the same
Picking at this stuffed being like a toy crane
Still so much to gain
Truth be told, because lies are cold
I'm scared of what I might lose
I'm scared that I won't no what to choose
I'm scared that there won't be good news
I need to stay strong in faith to red out the blue
To stop talking and do
One man, one boo
Hoping that this ends soon
For the Son to create a new moon


So tired, so tired
Starts so hot, just to end mild
Growing up, just to stay a child
Feeling like I'm in an X-file
Just not normal
Not fitting for the ocassion, I stay semi-formal
Always calling is inspiration
I see it everywhere, it's like a eternal mind station
Something so special, but not playful
Starting so close, just to be unfaithful
My mind plays tricks on me, but I know that that's not what it's made for
Wet papers in my notebook as to simbolize thoughts washed away
As to say : "Say what you mean to say"
But like red to black, the notes just fade
The notes just fade...


I admit because I know it's real
I admit because it's what I feel
I admit to tear off the seal
Just to free my heart and breath
Once again, just breath......

Spanglish Love ( Ft. Franchise )

Preciosa, probablemente no entiendas
pero esta sensacion me atormenta.
Creo sentir que el amor nos acorrala,
y entre nuestras vidas vaga...
una quimica anormal,
que me hace ver que el amor es real.
Que el amor no se limita,
que no discrimina entre negros y blanquitas.
Al contrario eso es lo que desata,
amor no importando las diferentes razas.
Culturas, idiomas...
no seran de problema.
Lo que sentimos uno al otro nos cambiara el sistema.
Se que no entiendes
pero el amor es el traductor,
para decirte que me vuelve loco tu olor.
Asi que se*orita dejese llevar,
digame que accepta
y dese prisa que la noche ya se acerca....
(Franchise!!!!!!!)

Oh my pretty latina
My beautiful Karina
Oh how much I really fell ya
Just tell me how to chill ya
Down, and let me put you in a pretty white gown
But first let me take you around town
Do you even understand a word I say?
If you only understood that I ain't here to play
In this situation, I'm challenged to everything, call it EA
Man I can't stand this, if only you didn't speak spanish
I don't get it...are you tellin me to can it?
Well I'm not gonna can it
Until you understand it
And I'm not gonna finish
Until I win this
I'm off to the store to get you " The Idiot's Guide To English"
(N.A.I.L)

A Verse Dedicated To Someone Who Can't Read It II

I was just wondering if you were busy
Because I miss you so much missy
All I wish is that you were here with me
I know I'm asking too much, for being so greedy
Sorry for requesting so much
it's just that when it comes to you I'm needy
And I don't expect you to completely please me
You just have to be close to me, it's that easy
Not worrying about next season
I wanna live in the present because you're here
And maybe in the future you won't be near
I only wanna talk to you, I don't need anybody else to hear
I'm scared of losing you, that's my only fear
See, I've never felt this way, so in a way it's weird
But in the best form ever
Lose my friendship? Never
Through whatever, I wish for your presence forever
I wish I could think of something clever
To make our interest for each other better
Let's grow together
For our hearts to grow redder
It's all I ask for in this letter...

Friday, August 7, 2009

Who Am I to You?

I'm so tired of having to deal with this feeling every day
You're still stuck on the same, person, same thing, same date
Looks like she doesn't miss me, but I miss her
She needs to break rope and I got the scissors
I wish she would accept her future and let go of what's behind
Stop looking back and search for something new to find
Stop acting like you don't care, together we can be one of a kind
But damn, you never get the point even when I show you the direction
I text you all about it, but you never get the message
Keep sneezing insecurity with no one to bless it
Keep waiting for me to clean up your past messes
I can't take anymore whining, no more fesses
You hold so much inside, I just wish you would confess it
You could ace this, but you never test it
Why you actin like I'm not here?
If you feel comfortable with me, then what's the fear?
You give too much static, so talk clear
As it stands, it ain't going for the best
You wanna play this game so badly, but you don't try to get off the bench
You did one thing wrong, but you haven't tried since
This doesn't make any sense
But I'll just keep swinging for the fence
And hope for the best in advance
The door is open, this is the chance

/// I try ///
/// But why? ///
/// Who am I? ///
Who am I to you?
Who am I to you?

Who am I to you?
Number one or number two?
The smart one or the fool?
Am I good for you?
Am I just to be used?
So many questions to ask you
But I know the answers
So why do I bother?
I just need you to be sincere for a while
Are my efforts working or am I wasting my time?
I'm in for whatever is in store, but I'm tired of making this line
It's so weird how you keep saying how you feel
But when it's time to act, you never keep it real
It's almost like you're mocking me
And mistaking my words for hypocrisy
I'm fighting against this wall, waiting for it to tumble
Just to get to you, but I continue to stumble
And lose my ways, but your the one who makes me fumble
Is it destined to progress?
Or is this an eternal test?


/// I try ///
/// But why? ///
/// Who am I? ///
Who am I to you?
Who am I to you?


Moving mountains has never been my specialty
It keeps getting harder for me
Situations keep popping up
It's almost like misery never gets enough
It's so tough when you act so rough
Just show what's behind the curtain
And take away this hurtin
If you're gonna keep on, just leave
This is not where I wanna be
I've witnessed a lot, but this is something my eyes don't wanna continue to see
Let this be for a limited time with no fee
Let go of these ropes so I can breath
Please just let me free
Just let me free....



/// I try ///
/// But why? ///
/// Who am I? ///
Who am I to you?
Who am I to you?

Cure For My Bitch ( Ft. Franchise)

Embody the image of a tree walking
It is as random as me talking
As uncomfortable as your ex stalking
And as noisy as a gun cocking
Funny how the mind functions
At midnight while I'm still munchin
And thoughts are still crunchin
As I see photos of my munchkin
Eating her way through a pumpkin
Time for a break to lunch-in
What the hell is wrong with Joshua?
He has turned into a monster
My ex was a witch so I charmed her
Tried to terrorize me so I bombed her
So many signs from above
I think she didn't find any flavor, so there was no real chance for love
Fly away like a dove
I will cross the horizons in search
My mind takes a head start so I never get there first
I guess that this is something redundant
To end somewhere so far from it
I kept telling myself I've never done it
But that's the reason and the way
The same reason they forgot about Dre
And the reason I still say
That there is no time for a kid n' play
But they're still my buddies
But I'm still buggin out like Kid Cudi
Don't laugh cause it ain't funny
Ok...maybe it is worth a chuckle or two
But what to do?
I'm still stuck on my super boo
Nothing new
Two words...Screw you
(N.A.I.L)

I'm young so I have never smoke none
but that doesn't mean that I don't get high
at the contrary, I still get fly
Just like M.I.A
with a flow like paper planes
that blow the cells in your brain
Issues that comes to my mind
when I think about my ex,
it just gives me stress.
All the shit of that time of the pass was a mess.
But I don't give a damn
F! it!, That's just simply the way I am
I can't even sleep
just like Jackie chain
I haven't done it in weeks.
and I recognize I'm young,
you don't even have to ask
but like kid cudi said,
I'm just living young and fast
( Franchise)

16 & Pregnant ( Ft . Franchise )

Studying the world, I see what lies within
A hole of darkness, waiting for cleansing is this sin
I think to myself and ask why love can't seem to win?
Why is it that people rather push someone down instead of helping them up?
A world looking to escape from being stuck
But it is a little too late
The prophecy is true as bait
What is right will be wrong and what is wrong will be great
People throw they're lives away at the image of an addiction
Psychiatric hospitals filled up with people's affliction
Putting their faith in evil spirits, they keep wishing
That one day this world will get better
How can you have peace if you've never met her?
Babies die in trash bins as soldiers get their letters
From their wives telling them they want a divorce
Where did this begin? What's the source?
Will we have to pay for the mistakes of Adam & Eve?
The answer is NO
We pay for the consequences caused by you and me
Yet we believe that this world we see
Will one day begin to breath
And the wars and the stress will cease
And the world will be at peace
Because it is in dire need
God help us please...



Look at the world we see daily
It's fairly easy to say we
Can make it better fairly
No more dead bodies, no more broken homes
Never more shall we stand alone
God be our ceiling and dome
And create a better world for the next generation
And be all one nation


I wish I wouldn't see things the way I do
It's like being hopeless for what's coming up for you
War took over on the early 2000's
and we made it worst with our own sins
They say a country gets poor because of their lack of faith,
and when we examine ourselves we are losing the right paste.
The one of our grandfathers who built up this world.
Taking right decisions and making all their work worth.
Values has been lost, we don't give a... anymore,
and we don't realize we are the ones making it worst.
We are living by emotions and not by the reason,
wasting our time in the last long seasons.
And all of this why? cuzz of the lack of love.
Love would stop the war,
love would stop wars death.
Love would even reduce the poor's debts.
And today, we defined it just cuzz of a kiss,
or maybe as sex, or It only works in threes.
but the truth is it only works if love really makes you free.....
(Franchise)

A Verse Dedicated To Someone Who Will Never Read It

Found only in the deepest waters of interest
I find that I am the one who has completely witnessed
I have found that you're the only one who listens
The personality I compare to the horizon
Because new things I keep finding
I never saw, but love is blinding
I smile even writing
But I get sad knowing that you can't see me doing this
I know that I act with foolishness
But I become a child in your arms
I feel you so close even though you are so afar
I see you like a shining star
Your face will always captivate my attention
When I see you I fill up with pressure
My heart beats faster
I feel butterflies crawling inside like a bug
I just wanna give you the biggest hug
And never let go
I wrote this so you could know
How you make me feel
You're image does a lot, yet your words do more still
I can't describe how I feel on the real
But just know that I think about you every second I have free
And every second I don't, I wish you were here with me
I wish you could jump in my mind
And see that you're inside most of the time
How I hope I dream about you after we hang up at night
So when I wake up I'll feel alright
This happened so fast
I just wanna take it slow so that it lasts
And we enjoy every moment
Forgive me if I haven't showed it
Or if I haven't told you
I hope the chance doesn't go by I wish you knew that you're the reason why
Oh honey bun how badly I miss ya
How much I really really wanna kiss ya
Hug ya and grip ya
I keep hoping you feel the same
But if you don't, it won't change
The way I feel will stay
Don't let go of my hand
I need you by my side to stand
And to the future progress
Together we will find the best
In both of us, we shall find what we're here to get
Helping us get through the test
And walk to the other side of the tunnel
I just wish that in the journey we stay close and cuddled
And I know you'll never forget my image
Cause I know that you're heart is know dented
With a mark that I left it
Why is it that I cry when we speak our hearts?
Things held in from the start
But I'm so happy that the journey won't end anytime soon
My sweety, my boo
Let me stay close to you
I know how you get scared
That our feelings will fade into the nowhere
And I can't blame that you think that way, it's fair
I don't know about you, but my feelings aren't going anywhere
Because I smile even when I get the image of your hair
The smallest things get me going
And I will let you keep knowing
That you always have a friend
For what you need until the end
Count on me for anything
Let's keep sharing our many things
Because one thing we have for sure is an incredible friendship
And that's a fact
Whatever happens, I promise that nothing will ever affect that
I'm sorry if this is overwhelming, I just had to get it off my chest
I just have a feeling that you're next...


With all the love in the world,
To the person who can't see it

Warrior

God look at me from above
In need I am of peace, provide me with doves
Bless me with your perfect love
Forgive me for what I've done
Pardon my mistakes, for them you shed blood
You're sacrifice provided me with a personal encounter
By the enemies I shall never be devoured
Just your presence is enough to empower
I pray that people will one day recognize
That their path is one that leads to nowhere
And your path leads to a life forever
It is impossible to deny your name, never
Your existence in our everyday battles is pure grace
Never shall you leave us alone to face
The war for survival
In this we are already victorious
Because you are our warrior


If I turn my gaze away from the subject
Give me warnings so I know what is expected
Give us faith, help us gain patience
Something we lose everday waiting for answers to life
Yet we forget that you provide
Everyday is a struggle, Your word says so
Help us get through it and get better
Lead me to the light at the end of the tunnel
Give me the urge to follow
Don't let me get lost in doubt
Being seperated from you is being lost and waiting to be found
Don't let us get caught up in the world's fashion
Let us gaze at your passion
Of your word I will never be embarrased
Why would I want to be famous in a world that is destined to be perished?
A greater life is set for me in heaven
When the clock strikes eleven
I hope my soul in your hands will be set in
The devil will not let us go easy
So fight for us and we will do our best to please thee
In your name I declare that I am more than victorious
Because you are my warrior


God look at us from the heavens
Let your mercy shine upon us and lead the way
To a better life, a better day
For this I pray
I declare that we will see your presence manifested
In the hearts of the cold-chested
I declare us victorious
//// Because you are our warrior ////

Angels & Demons

A new plate is being set for a new soul
But down on Earth he is still on hold
Many things he put to fill his spiritual hole
But nothing filled it whole
So he looked for the savior
At church with a new behavior
As he thought about accepting our Lord
He takes a step forward and one in return
For his heart is beating heavily and taking turns
For he does not know the way
To live or to burn
The brothers pray for him but he is still undecided
He searches for the truth, but can't seem to find it
A battle is surging for his spirit
It is so real that he can feel it
Church members keep praying for they know they will see it
Angels and demons fight for his liberation or his punishment
He knows that God is for the better but
Still he is tied to the world
But touched him did the Lord's word
So he says to himself
" This is probably good for my spiritual health"
No lie with his mental statement
So he accept the challenge and says his prayer
And a plate is set in heaven for him later
This is an everyday battle
We can't see them but we somehow feel them
This is the war between Angels and demons

The happy, the sad
Good vs. Bad
An everyday battle
We can't see it, but angels fight for us
This is the war's reason
This is the war between angels and demons


A situation is happening in a girl's house
Something that is left for when she is a spouse
Her boyfriend can't wait
To let go of his tension and get that outta the way
But she's only 14 and she doesn't know if she has a say
But in church they showed her the pathway
That she should hold until she's married
But this situation is so carried
Chock-full of her strongest temptations
Because most of her friends already have experience in the love station
So peer pressure is a big part of this situation
But not more than in her head
She hopes to put these voices in order
An angel and a demon on both her shoulders
Her spirit is warning her
But her body says : "don't wait till you're older "
" be normal like any other "
But out comes a stronger voice from high above
Saying : " I died for this moment, I am love"
She hears that and her spirit leaps
She suddenly stops the scene
And says: " that's enough, it's almost past three"
The boy leaves angrily
And she goes to sleep stronger spiritually
She gives thanks to God for what happened and that she stayed clean
Just a week later they broke up, because as it seems, he only wanted to get between
She was sad, but later found out he carried HIV
She said to God: " how do you know what's gonna happen to me? "
The answer was simple
" Because I am the almighty"


The happy, the sad
Good vs. Bad
An everyday battle
We can't see it, but angels fight for us
This is the war's reason
This is the war between angels and demons


A man leaves church and listens to a voice mail in his car
It was his best friend inviting him to a bar
He usually goes for sure, but this time is different
Because he has a new spirit
God is now in him
But the devil is not letting him go that easy
He won't let him live so happy and so cheesy
he wants to put him back in chains
As he is still parked in the rain
He begins to pray
Knowing that God is the only way
He prays for strength to reject the offer
As soon as he finished there goes another
He gets a call from his stepbrother
To head out to the club
But he knows that he has a membership to a different club
Many things pass through his mind
Angels and demons all fight above for the spirit inside
As they start to fight, the man receives a new vision, a new site
He remembers that now he can determine wrong from right
So he heads for his house knowing he did right
For he has someone to learn from
The Lord above fights for his son
Things like this take place from night to sun
Good thing to know that God has already won


The happy, the sad
Good vs. Bad
An everyday battle
We can't see it, but angels fight for us
This is the war's reason
This is the war between angels and demons

With Him For Eternity ( He Reigns )

Outside I go to admire the horizon
Looking at the skies and this is how I see and find Him
I see what he created with his own imagination
From the wind that blows in my face
To how I can smell my mom's pancakes
It is all His creation
He give us this beautiful station
And people say that they can't see God
How? When when he created the morning and dawn
He created the blue skies to the gray fog
We see his mercy everyday renewed
Yet all we do is find life's feuds
Yet with God's purpose there is much more to do than look for duels
The planet He gave is as a jewel
We know the promises He gave, but we still act a fool
And think we can use Him like a tool
But dude, He loves you even with all your rebel rules
Look for the King, He reigns
For he made the sunlight and rain
For he gives us pleasure even when we're in pain
Removes the messes we made
And leaves no trace, no stain
Because what He does is perfect
The Messiah
The God who lives in the higher
Who reigns from the heavens above to down in the fire
He is my sire
Always gives us the truth, for He is no liar
I love Him, for he died for me
If I died today, all I pray is to live with Him for eternity

If I leave, If I fade
If I turn to dust and go away
I pray to go to a place that is much more than what I see today
I new life for me
And live with Him for eternity

They ask: "Jesus, where have you been?"
"I've been dying here alone"
He says: " I've already died for your sins"
And you shall feel alone no more
Glory to Him for His will
For he knows what is real
For he knows what cards life will deal
But in His eternal love and consideration
He still let's us live life our way
But looking above from His throne, he stays
Making us better pathways
Praise Him, for he deserves all
From small to tall
Love, peace and happiness, it is a ball
I love Him, for he died for me
If I died today, all I pray is to live with Him for eternity


// If I leave, If I fade
If I turn to dust and go away
I pray to go to a place that is much more than what I see today
I new life for me
And live with Him for eternity //

Third Wheel

Damn I know I'm not supposed to be mad but
Why is it that every time I find somebody to get down
Somebody has to come and screw it back up
Man this sucks, out of all people, it had to be my bud
Sneaking up slowly, acting like Elmer Fud
Man it gets me pissed, don't you know that she likes this stud?
I don't want this to screw up our friendship
But you know I can't stand this
You know how I feel
This isn't a contest, this isn't deal or no deal
You know I need time to seal
So please just keep it real
Do you while I do me
And we'll return to how we used to be
I hope that's something that in which we both agree
Cause I can't stand going through this for the second experience
You have no idea how much I hate feeling this
Having the table set and somebody wanting to split it
I that you start reading this
For once and for all I can finish this


Here we go again
Me, her and a friend
Seems like this will never end
All of our feelings are in stake
Man
// How much will it take? //
To make this unreal
And have love without a third wheel?
//Without a third wheel...///


I feel bad for you, for me, but more for her. Because inspight
All this drama, you put her in the spotlight
Don't tell her to choose between
I'm gonna be her king and she's already my queen
C'mon man don't make me get stupid and mean
Her mind is already made up, So just please fade down
I respect that you told me but just stay down
No offense but I just wanna get this over with
But like you said, let's stay cool
And never lose our friendship dude
I agree, I'm in the same mood
So get this through
Cause I got things to do
I know you'll find someone soon
Cause you're a good dude
So, I'm gonna call her now
So God bless you


Here we go again
Me, her and a friend
Seems like this will never end
All of our feelings are in stake
Man
// How much will it take? //
To make this unreal
And have love without a third wheel?
//Without a third wheel...///

Isn't That A Female Dog?

Hmm seems like my name is in your mouth too often
You scream but I can't here you calling
You want me to catch you. but I'll let you keep falling
Cause everybody else is calling
Hmm I hear my name being called, man you guys are persistent
I cant hear you anymore
Cause when I was in need you guys practice the art of ditching
And when I was with you, you practiced the art of bitching
And when I told you things, you didn't keep it there, you started snitching
You always say stupid things but I still listen
Cause at the end of it all, it's still my buisness
But at the end of it all, you'll be a witness
Of how I stayed in good shape like nice fitness
When you look at this don't ask who did this?
My heart is in this
I guess that now you miss him
Cause he was the only one who would do you right
But life's a female dog, ain't that right?
So hang in there while I take flight


Don't look surprised
You wanna know why you missed the prize?
Cause you ate the cereal without taking a look inside
You missed what was to behold
You made the way but didn't let it unfold
It wasn't how I wanted, it was how you told
Now you're stuck with no love
Isn't karma just cold?
Don't think I'm liking your circumstances
I'm just taking some advances
In observation to both our stances
But I can't deny I chuckled a little
I'm only human, but I'm hard to understand
Call me riddle
So don't think you can read me so easily
And don't imagine I think of this pleasantly
I guess you wanted a little rest from me
I'll give that to you without a problem
But expect me to give you some cold shoulders as if you were in Harlem


So something similar happened to you?
What can you do?
Don't think that this can't be true
If you don't understand, don't worry
I'll give you directions to the lost and found
But not without a little saying that applies for now
// What goes around, comes around //

A Verse About Nothing

This has to be the first time I'm actually speechless
Wanting to say what I think, I need to speak this
But your the last person who should see this
And in the future, the last person to hear this
I still stand tall, believe this
Can't deny it, she is missed
But I really didn't need this
Even when I saw all the signs, I went through it
I should have known, better yet, I knew it
But I kept on going, so stupid
So many things told me : "don't do it"
Yet I ignored all that was said
Laid in my bed
Just to see you the next morning
So many emotions were storming
A new event was forming
I didn't regret anything but how it went down
We all started with a smile
Yet somehow everybody ended with a frown
Almost lost someone I never wanted to
It was all sorta because of you
But I take the blame as well, I'm not perfect
But I don't think anyone deserved it
The whole situation was overcooked and nobody turned it
Still, the memory stays cause nobody has burned it
It's still engraved in all our heads and for that I give thanks
Because I grew more than over deposited banks
Because lessons were learned
One of them was is always to me remembered
If the pieces aren't in place, don't be the one to put them
And don't fix something that is destined to be broken
But its all good know, we're all better
I never regret writing this letter
I know that to someone, she will be special
And many people are glad that they met her
As for me, I'm still searching
Being careful so I dont keep burning.

You'll Never Feel The Same Way

Thinking about you as always
Hoping that these feelings don't fade
But instead I hope they grow
And never get low
Never descend, never bend
I just how that with me, you stay straight
Find a way too put your feelings in line
Put your feelings in check and me in your mind
I fell in love with your understanding and your mind
The way you see through things, you see with different eyes
Your very kind even though you still remain shy
I still wonder why
Cause with me you know you can be yourself
Let go of what you think, dare to tell
Don't doubt what you feel cause you already fell
For me, and don't deny it
I don't mind it because it's mutual
People say: "well maybe it's new to her "
And that I know cause you told me
After we were holding hands in the movies
But babe I'll make this feeling feel new everyday
Trust me..you'll never feel the same way


So glad to speak once again
Have a long talk with my friend
It gets better and better as it gets close to the end
But the next day we'll do it again
Don't worry, tommorrow's another day
And I promise you won't feel the same way


When we talk, w always land on the same subject
The future, jobs, houses and what to expect
Everyday we find out something new like if we never met
But we now eachother so well like if we were set
In stone, but nothing is
Just tell everyone else to mind their biz
While we mind ours
Just talking for hours and hours
Till its way past afterhours
So I go to sleep with you in my thoughts
Cause everything stays new like we've never talked
Love how you never seize to amaze
But its a problem to get to you, like going through a maze
But I go through it cause I know this isn't just a phase
And if it is, I hope it goes a long long way
And the hugs, the kisses and love always stays
Everytime I see you, I disconnect from everything
Everything close, everything far, everything missed
I just see you like if nothing else was to exist
This is just pure bliss


So glad to speak once again
Have a long talk with my friend
It gets better and better as it gets close to the end
But the next day we'll do it again
Don't worry, tomorrow's another day
And I promise you won't feel the same way
You'll never feel the same ...

Open The Door

Feels so good cause I'm done
So it's down to the Son
See how he works
I'll see what he works with like if he was a clerk
I live life with a smile but it's more like a smirk
But that doesn't mean I'm a jerk
I'm just a man who speaks his soul
On my own two feet like the shoe's sole
Slippery floor , but I won't fall in the same hole
An incomplete man, never whole
I have what's inside, I just need the mold
I always bet my hands
But this time I think it's better to fold
I write what you may think is not hot
I agree, I think it's just cold
I have the necessary
But I'm a contender so I want more
Thinking my brains out, at least till my head gets sore
So I'm all laughs, but at the core
I'm so much deeper, just open the door


// So much held in, waiting to release
I stay shut so I don't disturb the peace
But there is so much to say, believe me
So just open the door and let me be free //


Open the door, welcome the universe
The magical world of the second verse
Into a different habitat you must begin to emerse
I get better while you see me get worse
I just get sicker cause I don't come with a nurse
Hate if you want, it's just a gift to the curse
My life goal is to find the meaning first
But I'll just have to live day by day first
Tired of holding it in
So I'll open the door and let it burst
Born original, so that means I've been different since birth
As real as it gets while people speak in NERF
I'll keep talking funny to you like Eddie Murph
Until you open the door and release the curse


// So much held in, waiting to release
I stay shut so I don't disturb the peace
But there is so much to say, believe me
So just open the door and let me be free //


Sorry to say this, but it seems like everyone is the same
Acting the same, the only thing different is the name
Is anyone besides me striving for a change?
Why are people satisfied with coming up short
When they can have a longer range?
It seems this day and age is so superficial
Caring about what they see instead of what's in them
Finding the meaning to the material
Instead of what's really official
Wanting to see the future when they don't let go of the past
Open the door and let that go fast
Why does everybody hide behind a mask?
Are they afraid of what people will say?
But inside they all feel the same way
What a waste life is when you never discover what's important in it
Ignoring the man who loves you the most and keep sinning
Opening up the same scars so they keep stinging
While the world keeps singing
The same old song that you hear
Open your own door and lose your fear...

Plane Ride

Counting my minutes
Life is so unreal
Sometimes I just can't believe it
This is sorta like an emotional discovery, just part 2
Life is crazy just like a cartoon
Everything in my head is animation, As I proceed to my destination
No way to escape, no evacuation
Never faking what I aint, no impersonations
Life is a trip
Get my luggage, I'm going on vacation
Relaxed plane ride, all fair
But people are trying to shoot me down before I get there
Let me get some fresh air
I see a blank scene and just stare
Imagining the role I play
I'm not streesin it, I just care
So until I get where I wanna be
I'll continue seeing what I wanna believe


Believe what I wanna believe
See what I wanna see
Still not where I wanna be
But when I get there
You'll be the one congratulating me


Still on it
Life has enough crap, just put more on it
Taking a look at my obstacles
But this is my fight
Not talking fiction crap, this ain't Twilight
These are dark times, yet I have my own light
These times are blinding, yet I have my own sight
Focused on the task at hand
Step by step, waiting to land
In the place I wanna get
A new pace is yet to be set
Till I see the gates open and a new life beginning
New people giving me a new greeting
A brand new habitat is waiting to be occupied
And I would like to be the first one to take a look inside
Lay down and never leave
I different feeling will be something I'll never need
So until I see what I write
I'll still be on this plane ride...


Believe what I wanna believe
See what I wanna see
Still not where I wanna be
But when I get there
You'll be the one congratulating me

Lookin Left

There is too much on my mind, I just had to write
Seems like I'm always looking left for love 'cause I can never seem to get it right
Why do I even try
To work it out with you, to wait for the answer
I just wish this was over faster
How am I supposed to feel good about this
When half the time, what's on your mind, is not this
If I'm doing the right thing, why am I not missed
Instead I'm substituted by another bliss
I really don't need to be pissed
But I can't get over these facts
Always the same number, always the same stats
The good guy finishes last


//One day it's this, one day it's that//
One day it's looking to the future
Another day it's looking to the past
Just look to the present and see what you can accomplish
I just wanna solve this


If the Black Eyed Peas told you not to phunk with my heart
And then they told you not to lie
I'm gonna be the one to tell you that you can at least try
Try to help me with this, instead of me taking the load
I keep having the same feelings back and forth
Sorta like if I'm in ping-pong mode
One day you show your love, the next it's cloaked
One day your heart is open, the next it's closed
If you like me, you like me
Easy as that so let me see
Are you for real or just faking
Are we gonna be friends or gonna start dating
I'll just leave it up to God, so he'll be making
The path that we should be taking
In the future maybe it's possible, but right now I don't see it
I'll just leave it
Till the next time I feel it
Maybe this feeling will be mutual
Instead of it being brutal
I believe it


//One day it's this, one day it's that//
One day it's looking to the future
Another day it's looking to the past
Just look to the present and see what you can accomplish
I just wanna solve this

She's Perfect But Not For Me

See I met this girl and she's just my type
Nice body, great person, beautiful eyes
Intelligent and funny, no lie
I've always strived for what's inside
She even watches sports all the time
I mean she's gotta be mine, right?
I mean she's what I want, in my mind, right?
I must have finally found my light
But there's something that ain't right
There's no spark when we talk
No feeling when we walk
I haven't even called her
I hope she doesnt stalk
Or even gets dissapointed
But there's something missing and I can't avoid it
Can't put my finger on it
Can't keep on ignoring it, no way to taunt it
I'm just not hooked on her phonics


Met a girl so special
Waiting for me like a mailbox waits for a letter
But I don't wanna upset her
There is nothin here to really see
//She's perfect but not for me//


Damn, why is this happening?
After all my searching and mapping
I found a girl that's the Peyton for this Manning
But we're not clicking
To these stupid facts I'm always sticking
So I'm always thinking
"Ok she's exactly what you want
She's exactly what you thought
A great girl in a bad world
Not a bitch, not a whore, something else
and a whole lot more
Just wait to see what you have in store"
Then she calls me and all the thoughts just drop to the floor
ugh...damn she's what I need in a friend
Indeed she even loves ESPN
But she doesn't give me any emotion at the end
But again, personality..check
Humor....check
Good to me?...more than I would expect
But does she have any effect?...
Damn....not check


Met a girl so special
Waiting for me like a mailbox waits for a letter
But I don't wanna upset her
There is nothing here to really see
She's perfect but not for me


// Just what I need, Just what I would
But she doesn't make me feel good
Perfect but doesn't shine like she should
She passes all my needs
She's perfect but not for me //

Is She Right?

I never thought that that I would fall for thee
Even knowing that you're maybe not the one for me
But you make me feel like I've never seen
Or felt, you like me too, I can tell
Why does my heart fight with my mind?
Both of them telling me different things at the same time
But at the end of it all, the decision is mine
But if I follow what I feel, will everything turn out fine?
Maybe I should listen to my mind
But then again, maybe my heart is right
Maybe I should go by sight
and take a look in the future
Before I hurt myself and I hurt you
When will something end this fight?
Is she right?



// I met you and I knew it was true
But many things came outta the blue
Somethings good, bad and new
Don't know what to do
Don't know if I might
But there's still the question..is she right? //



Is she right?
Is she tight?
Is she a lock to be with yours truly?
Should I let her do hers and I'll do me?
She's such a beauty cutie
Somebody poke me
This ain't a dream, this is a movie
There's no way you can script this plot
Screwed up in all ways, from bottom to top
Make it stop, emotions in a flip-flop
Is she the right one or is she not?
A basic question with so many answers
So many moves to be made like a dancer
Let's end this faster
Or maybe stay still
ugh..what will it be?
God, what is your will?



// I met you and I knew it was true
But many things came outta the blue
Somethings good, bad and new
Don't know what to do
Don't know if I might
But there's still the question..is she right? //


Screw it, I'm gonna take the risk
Damn but what if we don't fit ?
What if she isn't into me anymore?
What if I'm not in her core?
What if I lost my chance?
I'll advance anyways
I'm talking a lot but I won't do anything anyways
It's like I say
You can't see the future with no sight
But that doesn't apply
Because there is still a question
Is she right?...

[Untitled]

When will you get here?
When will I feel you near?
When will I hear
Th sweet sound composed by three words
Take me to a different place, another world
When will the time come
where I won't feel so lonely?
Guess it's all on me
But this stands so tall on me
The fact that I see everyone else with a different friendship
Someone to hold hands with
It's not that I'm in a hurry
It's that I know there's someone for me


Where are you? Will you ever arrive?
To return a feeling I lost on the inside
Such a lonely feeling
I'll be waiting for you this evening
Will I have to keep proceeding
Without you with me?



I'm I the only one that feels?
I'm I the only one that needs for love to be real?
I hope she does so we can meet
And I can have the chance to sweep her off her feet
And make everything so bliss and neat
I feel so wierd
Asking all these questions my dear
I just need to make myself clear
I'm punch drunk love, no beer
I hope you're out there and listen
Hear me out, and you won't be missin
I guess I'll just shoot and miss
But I know that soon I won't be feeling this...




Where are you? Will you ever arrive?
To return a feeling I lost on the inside
Such a lonely feeling
I'll be waiting for you this evening
Will I have to keep proceeding
Without you with me?

It's All About You

So, how's my baby doing this evening?
What dream did you have while your were sleeping?
Was I in your mind while you were thinking?
I'm know I'm asking too many questions
You're just so interesting in so many perspectives
Your touch and your affection is so effective
It just gets me love hectic
Your laugh keeps playing in my head in repeat
Your whole personality, I need it
I miss you and it's only been a couple of days
I just hope you feel the same way
As I do my boo
Because it's all about you


There it goes, I'm love struck
By a shining lightning called luck
Cause it's amazing that I found you
My sweety, my love, my boo
//It's all about you//


She said: " just tell me that you love me"
The way she did was so lovely
I told her that it was better to show you
I told you what it's all about, time to prove it
I said what's gonna happen, time to do it
But I've already acted upon my words
Making you smile, making you twirl
Showing you a whole new world
Having you as my girl
Darling, how could it be, that you can't see?
You mean so much more to me
You're what I crave, what I need
Just walk with me and I'll make you believe
Let's do what you wanna do
Cause baby it's all about you


There it goes, I'm love struck
By a shining lightning called luck
Cause it's amazing that I found you
My sweety, my love, my boo
//It's all about you//


Give me the privelege to give you butterflies
Give me the chance to take a look in your eyes
And see how fireworks explode
I'll do anything by any mode
Don't leave me alone
Stick by my side, just ride
You'll be doing fine
Cause there's love inside
We'll go to a place no one can find and just hide
From everything around us, just take my hand
Feel my heart, feel how I can't stand
To be without my girl
So how do you do?
I wanna know, because it's all about you

There it goes, I'm love struck
By a shining lightning called luck
Cause it's amazing that I found you
My sweety, my love, my boo
//It's all about you//

Emotional Discovery

Going home, I'm just chilling
Yet I'm still in
My mind is killing
All the time I could use for drilling
The holes in what's left of my emotion
The potion is simple, but I threw it in the ocean
Cause it's time I figured out what's wrong
My past is long gone
But I'm tied to it like Sisqo to a thong
My dreams are featured films
Produced by recurring memories
Directed by emotional hills
But this is just how it feels
This is real, this is what I have to deal

On the floor, close the door
Because I'm thinking once more
Do I have it all? Let's see
//Let's go on an emotional discovery//

Cut the wedding cake, next to the lake
Don't get there late
Me and my thoughts are tying the knot
Empty chest after rejection
Just like if I got shot
Guess I made a bad impression
Same thing keeps happening
Thoughts keep on channeling
About friends, situations, family
Even you
But why would you care? You don't feel what I do
Yet even I don't have a clue
Guess I'll just do what I do
Discovering the truth

On the floor, close the door
Because I'm thinking once more
Do I have it all? Let's see
//Let's go on an emotional discovery//

Laugh Often, Love Life

Where is it that I go now?
Where is it that I travel?
Thoughts unexpressed are messed up and scrabbled
How are they valued when to no one does it matter?
Through verses and sheets I've mastered
The art off getting things off of my chest
The source and the only real reason is what I've never met
The unexpected is still what I expect
Life is a game of 21, just not meant to bet
The answers were never supposed to be easy to get
But the past is only meant to forget
Great rewards await for the who survive
The grind, the struggle, the pain inside
For those who stand in front and fight
And keep their laughter, their love, their life



// My pathway is determined and I can't look to side
Keep going straight and you will find
Through the happiness and the pain
Through the sun and the rain
Keep on going, keep on the fight
Laugh often and love life //



Nobody knows the pain we all go through
Yet certainly it all has something to do
Everything has a purpose
No lie doesn't come without a truth
And no action comes without something to do
No decisions are made without something to choose
We all win sometimes but learn how to lose
It all comes in this little package we all call " life "
But in the end, will you go down without a fight
Letting the girl go when You could've broken the ice
How could you bet you were right?
when you never rolled the dice?
This is our life and it just started
Love God, love life and laugh often



// My pathway is determined and I can't look to side
Keep going straight and you will find
Through the happiness and the pain
Through the sun and the rain
Keep on going, keep on the fight
Laugh often and love life //



Love life because that's what God seeks
Don't be like the rest, he made you unique
An only voice so people could hear you speak
An amazing mind so you could think something deep
Don't wait and stand around, there's so much more you can be
When you get knocked down, get back up on your own two feet
And taste the sugary victory
Isn't that sweet?
And seek what you're truly looking for
And don't give up
There's a lot more in store
Laugh often, love life
Say it once more


// My pathway is determined and I can't look to side
Keep going straight and you will find
Through the happiness and the pain
Through the sun and the rain
Keep on going, keep on the fight
Laugh often and love life //

Get Used To Me

One thing, I don't know how
It doesn't even matter now
Cause I was never taught to handle my problems
I know how to cause them , not to solve them
Swallow them down to the core
Till I can't take it anymore
Waiting to explode, my heart gets sore
But thanks to that I have these words
I have my own mind to mentor
A heart from other worlds
An understanding meant to concur
Never have been meant to deserve
All I have is earned
Turned into a fire-proof being, never meant to be burned
As I earn your ears
Listen to me, hear


Blood on the pencil, heart on the page
Words beyond age
What I made, where I stay
A verbal bed where I lay
Nouns to be pronounced
Exits made for the highway
Ok, here I go again
From one to ten
Eleven and beyond, this never ends
This is the final countdown
No more meltdowns
I'm strong on the surface
I'm made for a purpose
Do what you want, it's worthless
Cause you're not gonna stop me
You're not Shaq, you're not gonna block me
Electrified on the inside, you're not gonna shock me
I'm never gonna shut up, ain't no way to sock me


// This is my emotional distress
My emotion is in this
Do you, I'll do me
But one way or another
You're gonna have to get used to me //

My Prayer

Closing the door
It's that time of day
Time to pray
Time to talk and say:
" God you're so great
Thank you for being with me
From birth do date
Glory to you for giving me faith
And for forgiving my mistakes
You are the one who knows it all
The one who catches me when I fall
The one that makes me stand tall
When I feel alone, you always call
And make me feel better
I feel you more than ever
For you walk with me
For you hear me
You see me when I'm blind to others
You gave me family
Your sons turned into a new set of brothers
Just when I think it's over, you give me another
Blessing, sometimes in disguise
Sometimes a surprise
But never late, always on time
I could never find
the reason for what you do
Guess you just love me and care
Thabk you for knowing everything
Even all the hair
On my head
Thank you for looking after me
Even when I'm in bed
I will praise you for you are holy
For all the things you do for me
Your sacrifice gave me the privilege
to go to you even though even though I don't deserve it
Even though I'm a sinner and you're perfect
I'm not worth it
Yet you ignore it
And attend to me regardless
There is no way to pay for all this
So until I talk to you again
In your name I pray, amen. "

The Dream

Ready for whatever, my vision is key
I'm lost in my thoughts
In twenty years where will I be?
My mind lives in the future
Because in the present it can't breath
I feen for a different Earth
Where happiness is given since birth
Where sacrifice is key like Simon Birch
Where people hate last and love first
But reality hurts
Truth is I hope I'm not the only one
With these thoughts, these needs
So I'll keep on telling the world till I leave


Life is but a dream, as it seems
the means now have an end
No way to bend
So just defend yor genes
Till you wake and see


See how crazy I am
See how my words make no sense
That's because you're not in the same sense
Haven't had the same experience
I'm not the same as these millions
Of people just copying the next guy
I ask why?
Why settle when we can do better?
Why write a phrase when you can write a letter?
How can you have peace if you've never met her?
How can you wake up from a nightmare if you've never had a dream?
How can I better myself if the focus isn't on me?
But as it seems...


Life is but a dream, as it seems
the means now have an end
No way to bend
So just defend yor genes
Till you wake and see


The answers aren't so clear
But fear isn't the way
Breath then say
Adress haters with compassion
So they no which direction
Adress the truth with confession
Adress your feelings with expression
Adress your stress with a session
Don't look to your sides
Look inside, look to the future and far
Limit yourself only to the stars
Don't be afraid to be different
We're all from Mars
Find the means
Find your dreams
And you'll see....


Life is but a dream, as it seems
the means now have an end
No way to bend
So just defend your genes
Till you wake and see

Prohibited Love

Here we go again
You're on my mind my friend
There is no end
To this eternal curiosity
As to what we could be
What would it be possibly?
You and me at 100 degrees
But I can't beg, can't plead
Can't get on my knees and say please
Because your already taken
But love is something I'm not faking
My heart is at stake and
A future we could ve making
Another chance to be taken
But I can't be risking it
Because this love is prohibited


I know this is wrong, I know you got a man
But damn
I can see us holding hands
I just hope you're listening
If not, I'll be visiting
But this love is prohibited


Another text, another picture message
Another hole to be left in
Another love trap set in
I try my best to not fall
But then you call
And I'm already on the floor
Liking you more and more
How do I stop this?
When I know I'm not causing it
I know and respect your relationship
But why are we playing this?
The most dangerous game
Who will be blamed
When I say your name
And you can't handle
The proposal on the mantle
Think of all the possibilities
I'm listing it
But I can't be risking it
Because this love is prohibited


I know this is wrong, I know you got a man
But damn
I can see us holding hands
I just hope you're listening
If not, I'll be visiting
But this love is prohibited


// Every sun, every moon
Every midnight, every noon
I'll be thinking of one thing
I'll be thinking of you //